what the shit I realised that my recent posts were freaking emo?? I legit not sad I just "expressing my creativity" or whatever nonsense. I like writing shit okay. now I sound like a 5 year old please excuse me while I grow up
so yups I wanted to start my last june holidays ever with a blog post. and I don't really have a subject in mind on what to talk about or anything, so I'll just ramble I guess.
but first! let me try to write a poem. let's hope it doesn't turn emo
ahem. (let me time this, I'm sure it'll take quite a while) IT TOOK LIKE 1 HOUR I AM A FAILURE
"haven't you heard
about her
the little girl
who dreams in the woods without slumber
she who never eats
who never drinks
can't even scream
since she was cursed to spin"
I made it into a song kinda. a little tune. contact me if u want to hear it
^ OKAY THAT WAS A FEW DAYS AGO FML PROCRASTINATION IS GREAT
anyway I decided what I wanted to talk about today. I'll draft my next instagram post here lmao. mostly about term 2
contents:
#1 secret society
#2 sops, choir
#3 ppl who came sov
and then I'll try to draft my T3A thing and personal statement here too, so at least I get some motivation (since I actually enjoy writing on my blog, and I can also kinda document my different drafts and see how it has changed)
*figuratively cracks knuckles because I don't actually crack my knuckles*
term 2 was crazy hectic, and I'm so glad we were together through it all :) I really appreciate all of you, and I'm not v good with emotions and expressing how I feel, but I'm super thankful for everything we've done together (like going for each other's concerts and getting balloons hahaha) and the memories we've forged. (also not v good with emojis pls forgive) 🙏 atb for CT2s hehe 💗
super delayed post no. 1:
thank you sops for the best VJChoir experience ever! it was really fun being with all of you, and I'm so blessed to be able to sing alongside such beautiful voices 💗 special thank yous to chery and mich for being the best sl and sc ever!! let's meet up again soon :))
#vjlungsgotpower
super delayed post no. 2
being part of VJChoir is a once-in-a-lifetime experience that I won't ever forget. I'll miss all of you very very much and I really hope we keep in touch. SOV 2017 was truly magical! to the juniors, all the best 💪💪 #nomanisanisland #togetherweperform
super delayed post no. 3
thank you to everyone who came to support us for SOV 2017! sorry if I couldn't/didn't take a photo with you though :( I hope you enjoyed the concert 🙆🙆 it was amazing performing for all of you!
okay now that's outta the way, lemme go ahead and post the first one. I'll post the choir ones after hn/tt
hey wait I can actually post the supporters one like tmr or smth
oh yes I should just write out a to-do list rn:
1) slv briefing by TODAY
2) notes for choir ppl
3) gdi notes for freshies who are no longer freshies gg.com
4) shit I forgot something didn't I
5) ah academic crap (see below)
6) oh yes medsoc shit
okay moving on to academic crap which is the writing of testimonial thing, and personal statement for General Purposes and also just for fun I guess. this is what I wrote in today's workshop (it's crap):
My elder brother is a quiet person, while I've always been quite the contrary. My parents comment that I took all the "talking genes" between him and me, as I engage in conversations about China's history with my dad, and discuss morals and values with my mother. Because of their encouragement, I have cultivated an important part of my identity, which is my intense desire to share ideas and be outspoken.
rewrite no. 1:
My brother is a quiet man, while I've always been quite the contrary. Often, my parents jokingly comment that I have inherited all the "talking genes" between him and me. Still, they indulge in my curiosity, participating in conversations that vary widely in topic, from the history of ancient China, to the importance of morals in science, depending on what I was interested in at the time. My family's constant encouragement has allowed me to cultivate what I believe is an important aspect of my identity, a burning desire to discuss ideas, and to be outspoken about mine.
I took a long time rewriting that!! idk if I should continue because it now sounds like I want to be a lawyer?? but I don't so. but it's a true story though. sighs I need to know what I want to be first.
I could continue rambling on and on and on and on (I'd make a terrible teacher) but I think I should get to doing other things. maybe save the T3A thing for tomorrow? at least my head is clearer now, and I think I've got rid of my writer's jam (which is sorta antonymous to writer's block? I made it up, it means that there are too many thoughts in the head that I want to pin down and write about and develop a story out of) so I'll be going now.
writing is amazing, it clears my head in the way completing a sudoku puzzle feels. idk hahahahhh unrestrained writing is the best. is this what they call journaling? bleh idc.
see now I can't stop. is this a sign of loneliness? like I wanna talk to people but no one to talk to? weird.
whoever reads this, you're weird too. I like you.
to quote a tumblr user: do you know how much braining it takes to make the words go?
it's quite hard to form these coherent sentences from a rojak of ideas in my mind. here's a tip btw from some writing expert: if you want to write the very best version of smth, don't edit it. print it out and rewrite it word for word. heh my pinterest scrolling is actually helpful I love this world.
a few minutes ago I saw a huge cockroach fly out from under my chair but didn't mention it until now because idk. wasn't planning to mention it. it's now on its back near the door I AM TERRIFIED.
okay my fingers are tired cya next time weirdos. probably just me gonna read this.