Wednesday, December 25, 2013 (Wow, you wrote this almost 5 years ago)
Dear Me (In The Future) Hey there, Me (From The Past),
How's everything going? I'm doing okay, I guess. Not amazing, but okay. Depending on when you're reading this, how's school/work? I'm actually kinda in-between right now. Just stopped working part-time at a pet shop (Lavish) and will be starting school at NTU (biological sciences) very soon. If you're still in SST, jiayou for 'O's! Haha, I'm not, but I did pretty well for 'O's, so I'm glad I didn't disappoint you. If you're in JC/poly/pre-university/university, did you get into my dream school? I gotta admit, I don't think I went to the JC you wanted me to go to, but oh well. And we didn't really have a dream university, did we? So NTU is pretty cool. And if you already have a job, congratulations! Not there yet hahaha. I really wonder what job you have now. Is it giving you freedom? I don't know about you, but I hate being tied down (Same), and I promised myself to never to get a nine to five office job. You might have broken that promise. I sorta did, through my JTC internship, but that was fun (the people are cool). Or maybe you're unemployed. Don't despair, alright?
I just want to say... Don't give up. No matter what life throws at you. Wow, inspirational. Sorry, kidding. Do you still believe that whatever happens, it's supposed to happen and you should just be happy because happiness is a choice? I forgot about that mentality of yours. Now that I'm older, there are more choices to make that create greater impacts on my life overall, and I feel that sometimes the wrong choices I made really do hurt me. Something happened to me today. I realised that I simply cannot be happy if someone I care about is not. Unfortunately, I stopped caring so deeply about others a long time ago. So I hope you are making others, and yourself, happy. Girl, I don't have that kind of superpower. I've changed since then. I've changed a lot.
Don't do it at the expense of your own feelings though. Be a little selfish. I am. But not too selfish. Ah damn. Don't lie at all though. Be honest to yourself and others. There's literally nothing to lie about to nobody... Okay maybe there's somebody. But you won't get it. I promise, it's important. I can't remember what incident made you write this letter, where you lied to someone and created a mess, but it probably ended badly so I understand why you're like this. Don't worry about it anymore. I hope you aren't laughing at your childish 14 year old self. I feel very old at the moment, you know? JK. Naw fam, sometimes I feel that you're more introspective than me right now, and I wonder when I stopped thinking and reflecting. But still... I believe you're a better person than I am now. I think we're still the same, but now I keep to myself more, and my self-esteem has dropped, like, a lot. Sorry for telling you useless/lame/obvious information. Are you ridiculing me now? I would if I were you. This is quite silly, isn't it? It's not, I promise. I'm glad you wrote this letter.
Do you have friends? HAHA. Good question. Yes, but I'm horrible at maintaining friendships so most of them I don't talk to all the time. Are mum and dad still with you? Yup, but I want to stop relying on them. I hope they don't take that the wrong way. Do you still have the memories that I want to keep? ... I don't know. But I really hope so. I hope the answers to all those questions are yes. GDI you're good at this. Believe in yourself... Believe in that special someone, if you have one. Be yourself. Be happy. I think I've forgotten how, but I'll try.
Yours sincerely
Me (Now)