how do we start writing again?
hm. I was looking back at older blog posts. and there are 2 things I wanna say about that:
1. I posted only once per year for 2019 and 2020 lol
2. I don’t agree with some my veryvery past self’s choice of words, and I’d like to apologise for using them.
I’m going to aus at the end of the week. I’ll be back in feb for uaeb but I’m gonna try do coursera as well.
in my 2019 post I had some goals, and I’m glad to say that I unknowingly tried to fulfil most of them. I regret some things about uni in hindsight, such as not going for more lab-based modules like ureca, but I didn’t prioritise it in the past, which is forgivable. we learn and we change.
gotta keep looking forward!
my stomach is growling I think I’m hungry. I haven’t eaten much in general the past few days. I think the day before yesterday I had a earl gray tea no sugar w pearl, a $3 taco, half a box of fried rice, and some roasted hazelnuts. yesterday I had a cheese/egg sandwich, 1.5 cookies, a green tea no sugar w pearl and a half a box of rice+side dishes. today I had a slice of white bread, half a mug of milk, 2 pieces of kaya butter toast, 1 teh c kosong peng, coconut water, half a cookie and a plate of noodles+beans.
I used to be happy about basically starving myself. I unfortunately still enjoy the feeling of being hungry. but I’m not gonna allow myself to be proud of a borderline eating disorder anymore. I WILL GO EAT SOMETHING RN.
I just got vaxxed! booster shot. oh maybe thats why I’m hungry too since my immune system needs fuel.